Dearest Maya, good the hear from you.
This gave me chills.
"Let's listen with our eyes and not just with our ears"
that really would be ideal.
You are not the only one who's thoughts are more composed in their mind.
Sometimes we say too much, or not enough.
I've learned that no one is a mind reader, and I've always thought that people around me knew how I felt, but in reality they had no idea what was going on.
It's important that we communicate with one another, so there are no unnecessary misunderstandings.
Of course, this will take practice.
No one is perfect, especially having good communication skills.
Although, if we keep at it, we'll eventually get the hang of it sooner or later.
I'm not sure if this will help you, or if it is even related to you at all.
Sorry this is such a long comment!
Oh, and here's a video that I saw recently and I couldn't help but think of you!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2xp22IYL2uU
p.s. a scottish fold would be so cute! (♥v♥)

hi Rina ^^ i'm sorry for the late reply - i have mountains of work just piling,
wanting to suffocate me haha.
exactly, Rina, I'm always surprised by how others seem to perceive me - and now
I just wonder which part of me that i show, maybe this or maybe that.
so confused, indeed, so puzzling.

i'm so afraid of over-spilling things, i need to learn about Patience.
sometimes I have too much in me, and too many words, I don't know what to say at all...
so I write, and I write.

thank you, Rina, you're right. your comments always help,
they always do, oh.

that video is amazing, so accurate. i need to tame the little creature and make it a part of me,
instead of struggling with it. :>

here's a song for you, Happy Tuesday http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2ZRRkUuBg1s&

I feel weird about spoken words, too. Lately my work involves hours and hours of listening, and I really like it. Then I get to write, which is really good for me, though I feel awkward about writing sometimes, too. <3